Today is a very difficult day for me its 45 years since my gorgeous son Ian died from a Acute Lymphatic Leukaemia, he was just short of 6 months, as you can see in this photo he was 9 weeks old and a beautiful baby, he looks a lot older than he was, and in fact when they diagnosed his condition they though he was at least 6 months but in the time I had him he lived many years, he even cut a tooth and met his great, great grandma to. I should like to introduce you to all the people who are in this photo from left to right, thats me Shirley with my son Ian on my lap and my daughter Karen in the front, she was almost 3 years old, behind her is my sister Linda with her new husband, and my brother Robin on the right, I wont tell you how old we were but this was taken in 1965 and Im now 67 years old so you can figure it out for yourself, my sister is 6 years younger and my brother 4.
Anyway as I said today is rather a difficult day and I wanted to make it special as over the last year so many of us have lost very dear ones, I lost my mum in November and I know a number of you also have lost yours, and several of my dear friends have lost children to and are finding it extremly difficult to cope with their loss, I dont think we ever get over it but have to learn to live with it. So I wanted to let you know its ok to grieve and also dont let anyone stop you talking about the ones youve lost as it helps to, its even ok to cry if that helps. My own believe is that one day I will see my son again and he will be fit and well and running around, and even probably grown up as well.
Now the Bittersweet thing thats happened today is I received a email from my future granddaughter in law, she told me that she and my eldest grandson have booked the date for their wedding, mind you its two years
away but in their neck of the woods its a necessity to get the date you want. The ironic part is theyve picked a date between my mums Birthday and her Wedding Anniversary, the 18th of August 2012, which I find is a blessing as its like my mum has sent a message to say that its ok to live again and we can look forward to a wonderful future for the pair of them. So something good has come on a day I never look forward to, and the sun is out to.
Theres also one more thing Id like to promote and thats Kimmi's Race for Life thats shes taking part in on the 23rd of May, if you would like to sponser her or give her support please pop across to http://poppy-petal-designs.blogspot.com/ and do so as Cancer is one of those dreadful deceases that really need to be got rid of.